Difference

I finally finished the most hideous application form known to man kind. It is called Second Step ;) It took me seriously 3 days to finish it. It is the form I got from OMF after I completed the first round of interview. It asked about my relationship with God and church, my thought on OMF policies and my stands on different denominations and different practices. When I first looked at the questions, a lot of my answer was "I don't care". But when I started filling the form, my first reaction became "Oh, I don't know I can accept that. That sounds just wrong." Then I realized what I was doing and stopped to think. Do I really care that much about how we define baptism or church membership. Not really. But I am more used to how my church define those concept and anything else seems too foreign for me to accept. But those concept are just different way to interpret the doctrine. And the most important part of my faith isn't even that. Then why those tiny difference becomes so important. And would that stop me from working with people whose view is differently than me. It shouldn't be. We all believe in the same God and believe that Jesus came and die for us. That should be enough. We should not focus what we do externally, but how our heart is.

So even though the form is hideously long, it does help me to reflect a lot on the basis of my faith.

The Beginning

I applied for a mission position with OMF in Singapore/Cambodia. I somehow want to keep track of my thought during this process. This is the email I wrote to my partner partners at the very beginning.


The whole thing started off with me surfing for short term mission opportunity in Cambodia and came across a posting looking for personnel to work on an IT project in Singapore/Cambodia. Ever since I went to Cambodia two years ago, I always want to go back to help the people there. And it is a ministry that require what I do for living. I can hear God's calling so loudly that I immediately email OMF. I had an interview with their project manager in Singapore and also their National director last week. Even though I blew my interview on the technical part :P, both of them told OMF to proceed my application to the next step. So here I am, filling a bunch of forms :(

When I first saw the position, I was pretty excited. But this week reality sinks in, with all the logistics problem, I became very scared. The most scary part is I have to leave my job and not able to have an income for the period during mission. That idea freak me out. With mortgage I have and being the financial support for my family, the more I think about it, the more I lost in the idea why I would even want to move. No matter how many times I told myself that I have to trust God will provide. It is just a step of faith I have to commit. And if I know it is a calling, why it is so hard to trust God. Why when I told my congregation to not let money stop them from going on mission, it burden me so much. The more I think about it, the more scared I am.

Then my parents called me on Thursday. Their acceptance on the idea is actually the scariest of all things. I have been delaying to tell them until I passed the first step. My mom first wanted to make sure everything is okay with me. Then she said if it is something I want to do, go ahead and do it. Don't let them stop me. You can't imagine how touched and encouraged I was when I heard that. My family isn't rich and with me leaving and not working for 1-2 years, we really need to juggle thing around. And my parents are non Christian and I can't expect them to understand. But they support me anyway. I am truly encouraged by them and pick up my courage to keep going in my process.

Body Check Part 2

I finally finished complete body check and got my test result today. That inclued everything you can think of to test (5 test tubes of blood! and TB skin test and chest x-ray). I think the only thing that is missing is a CT scan. Everything seemed okay. The most exciting thing is I finally know my blood type. But it cost me $20 to do the test. :( Now I know who can save me when I need blood. Hahaha. My family doctor figured since I am doing all those blood test, I may as well do my thyroid test which is long overdued. The result comes back is confusing. Apparently my body think I have enough thyroid but my brain doesn't think so. So my doctor is going to change my medicine dose and see. I wonder if that is what makes me feel so tired lately. Could be just all the staying up late for nothing. But at least I know my health is fine-ish. :)

Blind!

This weekend I had new discovery of myself. I am blind. I am in fact so impressed with myself on how unobservant I am. We often said guys are unobservant. The guys I worked with wouldn't notice when I cut my hair from shoulder length to just covering the ear. But man, I am more impressed with myself. How often do you notice your tires? How often would you notice your tires are different? Would you notice the rear tire from the driver's side changed? How about if the tire cap become bright yellow, I bet you would notice, right? I walked out to my car Saturday morning and notice something very different. My tire cap became bright yellow. I had that instant panic that someone stole my tire cap. But when I looked more closely, I noticed it was not just the tire cap, the whole tire was smaller. It was the spare tire. Then I became more panick. Who on earth change my tire to a spare tire!! My first reaction someone broke into the garage again and thought it was funny. But when I opened my trunk, my regular tire was right there, nicely wrapped in plastic bag. I was all confused now. I took my car for service on Friday and they mentioned I needed new tires and ordered a set for me. Would it be the service people who changed my tire? But why would they do that when they were about to give me new tires? The MOST interesting part is, I was driving my car the whole Friday night without even noticing my tire is different! Not even the bright yellow cap caught my attention!

The Scariest V-Day

Tonight, while everyone is out celebrating (or forced to celebrate) Valentine's Day, I was freaking out with several friends cause we couldn't get a hold of one of our friends for couple days now. She hasn't been very responsive to any of our email and phone calls and text messages. But she has been in contact with one of the friends. But now not even that friend can get a hold of her. And last thing we heard was she was sick and that was 4 days ago. Her family didn't know where she was. So my friend and I decided to go to her place. I went there earlier and knocked for a good 10 minute but no one answered. We figured we would try again. At least may be we can get a hold of the landlord. We rang the door bell and knocked on the door and still no one answered. We finally talked to her neighbor and asked for landlord's number. We called the guy but he couldn't do anything unless we called the cop. He said may be she was out celebrating Valentine's Day with her boyfriend. That moment I wish she just having a secret boyfriend and not telling any of us. The landlord also asked if we smelled something funny. I almost broke to tear on that thought, but I did know I didn't smell anything. My friend and I sat there and debating if we should call her brother about calling the cop. We finally figured we will wait for one more friend to show up and gave some input. The wait was killing both of us. We changed our mind and went to another friend's house to wait instead. None of us know what to do still except calling her family, but we hesitated in case it was really nothing. It was then, she finally replied to my friend's email and said she was sick and just slept thru all the noise. I swear I never swear so much in one night in my life than I did last night. Part of me was so glad she is alive and part of me was so mad at her non-responsiveness. So, Happy V-Day!

Valentine's Day

Today is Valentine's Day. It is also another good day for business to rip money off people. For some reason, flower, chocolate, and dinner is a must for married/dating people. And they are also stupidly expensive during this time of the year. My brother and I always had this big business plan when we were a kid. Back in Hong Kong, dating couple usually like to stroll along the Victoria habour at night. That is like a dating activity. And on Valentine's Day, some people will carry basket of roses to sell. They will approach the couple and ask the guy to buy a rose. The guy usually wouldn't dare to say no in front of his girlfriend even though the rose is insanely expensive. And you can't really say no when a kid is selling too. So my brother and I figure it is like a sure win business plan. All we need to start is that basket of roses. We can make like $100 per rose. We will make enough money to last a year. And then come back next year for more. Of course this never happen because our parents think we were just two stupid kids. :( Happy Valentine's Day! :)

Body Check Part 1

Today I went to do a series of blood tests as part of my body check. I am actually quite familiar with blood test procedure. Because of my thyroid problem, I need to do a blood test every year. However, I was never thrilled when the nurse came close with a needle ready to poke me. Today is a bit special. Because of the number of tests I need to do, they need to take 5 tubes of blood from me compared to the regular 2 tubes. Usually I would turn away and not look at how they took the blood from me until they are done. But today it took longer than usual and I turned my head and looked. I was stunned. I was scared to see how fast my blood leaving my body and streaming into the bottle. I felt so weak all a sudden, as if my life was leaving me. I almost wanted to faint. I had to take several deep breaths to calm myself. I know. I am such a wimp. Faint after looking at my own blood for 2 seconds. But it is really scary! I am glad I never choose to be a doctor.

Breakforth

No one in the right mind would go to Edmonton in January. Well, no one except me and two other friends from my church. We went to Edmonton to attend Christian conferenced called Breakforth. I heard this first from my friend in Edmonton. Since this is one of the bigger conference in Canada and I haven't been to much, I figured it was good experience (and I got free accomoation too :P) The conference turned out to be quite well, in a different way than I expected. I was expecting it to be a revival conference and I would come out like a new person. I didn't come out as a new person, but there are some interesting speaker that gives me inspiration. I particular liked a guy named Dan Webster. His session is about leadership, especially church leadership. May be I felt a bit lost on how thing should be done lately and I am not particular like how thing is. His talk set my focus back to the ministries. Everything is about the heart. I also really like the worship part. Those worship leaders can just bring the passion from people. That is what worship really is than just singing songs. This weekend I thought I would come back having more confirmation on my decision, but instead, I got inspired in a quite different way. But I do pick up my passion to do the ministries again.

Does Anybody Hear Her

I came across this video while surfing the web. Very powerful lyrics. It was a good reminder for me on how we all just too self-absorbed in our own problem and get too comfortable with our own friends but forgot about the people around us. As a church, we are no longer approachable but rather just show people that they are different.

Food from Beijing

This is a Chinese style crepe I got from the street. They wrap some crunchy stuff inside the crepe and put lots of sauce in. Yummy breakfast for freezing morning.
I ordered this noodle from a Muslim restaurant (I went in for the lamb kebab). This tasted a bit like noodle with very watery tomato sauce.
Mushroom with pine nut from Quanjude restaurant. Very tasty but I wonder if they used duck fat to add the extra tastiness :)
It is sushi. That is right. I ate sushi in Beijing. This was my dinner after meeting with my cousin. He suggested several places around his university. Since I wanted something light, I went to a Japanese restaurant. I ordered a salmon don and hoping that it would remotely taste something like Maruwa. And it was not. It had no taste at all and was expensive. The beer was cheap though (only RMB 12 for a big bottle of Asahi). I found out later that this was not the restaurant that my cousin recommended. Oh well, too late.
And I had Korean food in Beijing :) I found that I was a bit tired of Chinese food but I don't know if I could find good western food in China. I was actually craving for a grilled cheese panini when I found this Korean restaurant. Turned out quite surprising good. I ordered a spicy tofu hotpot and it was pretty yummy. Warmed me up to finish my walk.

Sunday Sermon

I found out that there is a church around my hostel. I was kind of surprised because I was staying in the older part of Beijing and I totally didn't expect that there is a church. So I decided to attend the Sunday service as usual. They have 4 different time and given that I am a lazy bum these days, I picked the 11am one (I could have gone to the 7pm one!!!) The most interesting thing is the pastor wasn't even there physically. They have TV set and they are just playing the video tape of a pastor preaching in another location. I found it quite interesting. I thought I may know some of the hymn back from the elementary school years, but apparently not. There are a lot of different age group in the church, even some like grandma ages. The pastor preached in Chinese. I already have difficulties with listening to Mandarin and listening to sermon in Chinese is another challenge. I soon started to zone out :P I felt a bit bad because my neighbors were all madly taking notes and my mind wandered off to thinking where to go next. I should have search for an English sermon and may be that would be easier for me not zzzz :P

Beijing Duck

Since I was travelling alone, I wasn't sure if I should go eat Beijing Duck. But then everyone keep saying that is something you can't miss. I figure why not. So I went to the most famous place Quanjude Roast Duck Restaurant (全聚德) for lunch one day. I ordered half a duck and a veggie dish since I haven't eat anything green for like....7 days :(. I actually found it quite disappointing. The veggie dish I order was actually quite tasty. But the whole time I kept wondering if they use duck fat to cook the mushroom cause everything on the menu seems to contain duck. Then came the main dish. They first gave me a small dish of skin only. I had two pieces. I swear that those two pieces could have given me a heart attack. IT IS ALL GREASE! And it doesn't even have much taste. All I can taste is oil. Then the rest of the duck. You have to order the side dish separately. So I only order wrap and sauce. The duck meat is actually quite dry. I was not very impressed after all, especially it is the most famous restaurant. I think I make a better duck than them :P The whole meal cost me RMB 200. I almost cried when I paid and want a refund.

Forbidden City

The first day in Beijing I chose to go to Forbidden City. Mainly because A, I really want to go there and spend as much time as I want. And B, I know exactly how to get there so I don't need to look up a map or anything :) Though after Chengde, I was a bit afraid that I would be disappointed in Forbidden City as well. But I ended up spending two days there.

I picked up one of the audio guide so I could learn more about each place and still travel at my own speed. I didn't find out till the next day that if you get the Mandarin one it is cheaper (RMB 40 vs RMB 10) and it has more detail description. It is an automatic machine so it picked up the signal when you are in the area. The annoying thing is the machine is very sensitive. It picks up the signal even though you are not at the place yet. So there was one time I was in washroom and my stooopid machine started talking!!!

I successfully avoided to use the Chinese washroom in Chengde because my hotel was very closed to everywhere. But I didn't get the luxury in Forbidden City unless I wanted to kill my bladder. The ones in Forbidden City is actually 4 stars :P The only challenging thing is to go to washroom with your day pack and wearing a down jacket. I bet the cleaning lady must think I drowned in there somehow because it took me a freaking 15 minutes to get out the stall. :P

If I complained about how few tourists in Chengde, then Beijing is PACKED with tourist everywhere. There are tour groups from everywhere around the world. I ran into a group of Japanese girls on the first day. The interesting thing is they all wear kimono. I didn't dare to go ask why but I did take a picture of them :)

The whole time I walked around listening to how each place is used, I keep thinking, how could ONE person use that much space! I always thought my tiny 700 square feet is pretty big for one person. But when you look at the Forbidden City, there is a hall for the emperor to dress, a hall for the emperor to prepare to enter the main hall, a hall...man, that is all for one person!! Another thing I found interesting is, how could the empress and concubines walk in those shoes back then. Here I was walking in my runner and I almost fall every now and then. And back then, their small feet....how could they even stand up?! and walk without falling head over heel?! I guess the same skill set that some ladies master to hike in high heel. :)

Eight Outer Temples

I spent the next day in Chengde to visit some of the temples in Chengde. It is supposed to be very famous because it is part of the Mountain Resort. I picked only two temples to go because I knew I wouldn't have enough time to go to all eight. I picked the largest one called Puning Temple(普宁寺). Unfortunately, I found it rather disappointing. It has one of the biggest Buddha statue which is two storey tall. But that is about it about the temple. And it cost me RMB60!!! Totally not worth it.


The only thing interesting is they have a "band" outside the main building. Whenever you donate RMB100, they play some music supposed to be wishing you luck. Other than that, it is relatively boring.



The second temple I went to is a resemble of the Potala Temple called Potuozongchenge Temple (普陀宗乘之庙). I found this one more interesting but unfortunately the weather wasn't very nice so I couldn't take a good picture of the place. The main temple has some "lama" to greet people. One of the lama in the temple was telling me he could preform some sort of trick so by looking into my eyes, he could tell my birthday and he and his master are the only two people in China that could do it. Another lama wanted to preform a ritual on me to wish my luck. Somehow that freak me out and I kind of ran out the door while keep saying no. Other than that, the temples are pretty much a rip-off.

Food from Chengde

Food is the most important part for my trip. I actually travel to eat. Here is some of the food I had in Chengde. Most of the time I just wander around and walk into a place where it has tons of people.

I didn't know that "seaweed wrapped rice" mean sushi! I felt I got ripped off. But then it is only RMB 12. I guess I can't complain.
The wonton is okay. Just pork. RMB 4 only. What more do you want!
Congee and steamed bun. I refused to stay in my hotel and paid RMB 15 for a breakfast buffet. Instead, I found this congee place next to my hostel. This is only RMB 4 :D
This is from a dumpling specialty store and it is seriously YUMMY dumpling. It is a bit more pricey though, RMB 30. But it is because of the content I picked. It is 桂花鱼 (a kind of fish but I don't know the English name). I would say this is well worth it! Just looking at the picture make my mouth water again :D
I was freezing my bum bum off while walking down the street so I decided to have hot pot for dinner. The waitress thought I was nut to eat hot pot by myself. I didn't order much though. Just lamb :) For some reason, they seem to use less sauce than what I am used to, but I guess peanut sauce is enough for lamb.

Mountain Resort

After I complained numerous times to my cousin for telling me to bring an extra thick jacket for my trip when Beijing is really just like Vancouver weather, my extra warm down jacket come in pretty handy in Chengde. I spent two days in Chengde to tour around and to be honest, I am quite disappointed the first day in Mountain Resort (避暑山庄). It is supposed to be a royal summer resort several hundreds years ago and it should be even prettier than the summer palace in Beijing. However, since it is fire hazard season, half the resort is closed. A lot of displayed only has Chinese explanation and they don't even have enough light on. Everything is so dark and old. Since it is not exactly travel season for Chengde, I am almost the only tourist in there. I wander around thinking if they closed the gate without checking to see if everyone left, would I be locked inside. However, the garden is extremely pretty. You can see the people put a lot of effort to make sure all the scenery tied together. And then you have to wonder how can people be that rich (I know it is a royal resort) and have so much time. I wish I could retire like that!

Bus Mates

I met this couple Alan and Linda, on my bus ride to Chengde. It was a 15 people minibus and they keep talking in English. Linda was actually knitting the whole way too!!! Eventually I was curious enough to talk to them. They are from San Francisco and will be here for a month. They already been to DaTong and PiuYiang (I was so excited when they told me that cause that was the place I was going to go originally but have to change my plan because lack of time) and will spend next few days in Beijing. They were commenting the reckless driving of our minibus driver. It is kind of reckless and I am glad I wasn't sitting in the front cause I would totally freak out. It is a single lane highway. And whenever he want to pass people, he basically drive on the incoming traffic lane. It is okay if it is straight flat road. But we are talking about driving between mountain, where it is curvy and wavy. And it is not a quiet road. He basically would shift back to his lane LAST MINUTE before hitting the incoming car. I am glad I arrive in one piece and not knowing better. I am slightly disappointed that my bus ride didn't stop at the Great Wall, which my book said they would, or use the new highway which would only take 2.5 hours. But I guess my bus has a load of people wanting to go home. Once we arrived at Chengde, it seems like Alan and Linda are going to the same hotel as me. So we took the bus together. Since I am the person actually speak more and better :P Mandarin than either of them, I asked the bus driver where about we should took off. She said 6 bus stations. After stopping at 3-4 bus stations, I forgot exactly how many were there left. So I ask the lady beside me and she thought for a bit, and when the bus stopped, she quickly told me to get off HERE. I was like...errr....but...and without giving me anytime to to say anything, she dragged me off the bus and then showed me on the board at the bus station to take another bus that would take me directly to where I wanted to go. The problem now was that Alan and Linda were still on the bus and it was so crowded that they didn't see me get off. I haven't seen them since then. I hope they are okay. :(

Joy Ride

I decided to wait after the rush hour to take the subway with my backpack. The girl in hostel told me to go Xizhimen to catch the bus there. Silly me forgot to ask about the exact address and bus schedule. When I arrived at that subway station, no one seemed to know there is a bus to go to Chengde. So I tried to get closer to train station and tried to find if there is a long distance bus station to ask. I found a ticket booth next to a bus parking lot. The lady at the ticket booth told me the earliest ride to Chengde is 3:00pm, and it was 9am at that time! She also told me to go to Beijing station and they have an earlier ride. I quickly hopped onto the subway to go to Beijing station and was slightly annoyed with myself that I forgot to ask the bus schedule when I left the hostel. I took out my lonely planet and it mentioned there is two long distance bus station and have bus leaving every hour. Now I am in dilemma. Should I trust lonely planet, or try what that lady told me. I figured I had enough time to check out what the lady said first. And I was a bit worried that the lonely planet information is out of date since it is not travelling season. When I arrived at Beijing station, I found I made a bigger mistake. It is a HUGE station and I had no way to know where to find the bus station. I figure I would check the train schedule first since I am this close already. The lady at the ticket booth told me the earliest train is leaving at 12:30, which is exactly what the other lady at Beijing north station told me. I finally realized I have been talking to train ticket people the whole time!!! She gave me a very annoyed look and I figured I will get a ticket since I am here anyway. After I got my ticket, then I remembered that that train is actually that super slow train and it would take 6-7 hours to arrive compared to a 4 hour bus ride. Here I am standing at Beijing station again debating if I should suck up with my mistake, or really see if lonely planet is correct. Since I had another 2 hour to kill, I rather went check it out than standing at the bus station guarding my belonging. Once I arrived at one of the closer bus station that Lonely Planet mentioned, I found my bus. It is leaving at 11:30am and will take 4 hour. So after I wasted 2 subway ride ($2 each) and 1 train ticket ($20 and I should have refund it if I know better) and 3 hours of running around like a mad woman, I am on my bus to Chengde.

PS. I just checked the train schedule and apparently it is just a 5 hour ride for the ticket I got. I should have taken the train instead since the bus ride took closed to 5 hour anyway. Oh well.


PPS. What is a trip without me injuring myself. Here is the bruise I got from tripping in Beijing station while trying to figure the bus situation. I swear I will bring my hiking boot to travel next time. The whole time wearing my backpack, I feel that i will trip anytime. Good thing is that my laptop survived the fall with me landing on it :)

Starbucks Guide

Before I left for my vacation, my friends teased me how am I going to survive with no Starbucks in China. There was a 2 second panic and then I remembered reading something about Starbucks opened in Forbidden City. So I am sure there is Beijing at least have Starbucks. Today started off with me waking up at 4am because of the stoopid jet lag. After trying for an hour to go back to sleep, I gave up and did some reading and MSN. Then my coffee addiction kicked in. It was 6am in the morning. I didn't know if the Starbucks in Beijing open that early. I made use of my free Internet to find the closet store open at 9am! (why can't they open at 6am like Vancouver!) I figured I would go for a walk anyway cause I was starving already and I really didn't feel like eating another granola bar (Note to self, always bring granola bar to travel from now on. It saved me twice already on this trip :P) When I opened the hostel door to go out, there was a guy, Ryan standing wanting to stay at the hostel. But all the receptionist were still asleep at that hour. So he just dropped off his bag inside and walked with me. He happened to come back from a trip to Dalian and knew where the Starbucks around the hostel is!! My friend said I always have a weird instinct to find all the Starbucks. But never before that when I opened the door and boom, a Starbucks guide :p So we chatted a bit and apparently he is from St Louisiana and came to work in Shanghai for couple months. And now wanting to move to Beijing. He looked abit like my friend Wes but I didn't say that out loud. (sound too much like a pick up line). He studied architecture (I was going to say my cousin is doing that here too! but found that sound a bit weird too) and just trying out to live a different life. I found that quite interesting cause he apparently doesn't know a word of Chinese and not having any friends or relatives here and decided to just come and see. I guess he is still young to do that.

One World, One Dream

I arrived safely in Beijing and writing this from my hostel room. The flight was pretty uneventful. I was so tired from trying to get everything done for work the night before. I basically work the whole night and some extra time while waiting for boarding. My neighbor on the plane is a guy from Winnipeg going to Zhengzhou. (No, Ray. He is not hot. So keep praying :P) He was an okay neighbor until he decided to be talkative. He almost didn't shut up for the rest of the trip even though I put up the face that I am doing some serious reading (well, I guess you can't say reading "The Devil Who Wear Prada" seriously) I guess one good thing is I get to practice my long-lost super broken Mandarin.

Compared to last year in Vietnam, I am surprised when I walk out the airport, I wasn't surrounded by tons and tons of people asking if I want taxi or ride. In fact I was only approached by two people and once I said no, they leave me alone. Beijing is totally different than how I remember it. It has such a big cities feel now. Very metropolis like. People are different than I remember too. They are really polite and helpful. Compared to several years ago when I went to Shanghai, people actually lined up here. When I went out for dinner last night, I saw one of the traffic controller yelling at one of the biker who tried to run a red light. I am pretty amazed by that. You can actually follow traffic light (and other people do that too!) without worrying getting killed. Last time crossing the traffic was the biggest challenge for me in China. I guess at least in Beijing I won't be killed in car accident this time.

PS. The hostel I am staying is pretty neat. I will try to take some pictures in the morning.